goodbye is the hardest word.

Just came back from a day of bountiful fun and laughter with tons of my college friends, many of which i have not seen for quite some time. It was crazy sharing our past in the present, sending them into an unknown future. Some of them are leaving to the States to further their studies soon, and it's just really sad to know that they're so far away soon. 

There is so much i can relate to goodbyes..

Like how i was forced to say goodbye to my friends today. And not knowing when i'm going to see them another time. And what about those who're leaving but weren't here today? Having them to be part of my college experience was just really nice regardless of all the ups and downs everyone have had. 

Like how i am trying hard to say goodbye permanently to my ex. Believe it or not, i still cannot seem to be able to move on completely from my previous relationship and every little thing i see that can be related to him throws me into a hollow of sorrows. 

Like how i had to say goodbye to someone who was near perfect, in the sense that he fits every criteria i look for in a partner, and that we have a mutual attraction. But alas, separated by Fate and distance. 

Like how i've to say goodbye to moments i cherish, like hanging out with friends today, and other moments of meeting someone who can really click with you and not be awkward sitting together in silence. 

Like how i've to bade farewell to the Hope i have cultivated for a certain matter because i was let down by something or someone. 

Like how i've to say goodbye to reality, and heading on to dream in my sleep and let my brain work me into excruciatingly painful or joyful dreams. 

Like how i'm trying to say goodbye to all these melancholy by writing them out here, but i've a feeling it wouldn't help. 

Also, like how i have said goodbye to this blog, leaving you guys for much more time with my books and rest.  I'm having my semester break now, so i hope i would be more inspired to blog about everything in my life with this amount of free time on my hands. 

Goodnight, people. 

Sigh. 

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Dedicated to Sam, Ashley, Yizhong, Nat, Tsu Sheng and all the other people i know who're leaving.. Please take care, guys. It was awesome that Fate brought us together, and we must make the effort to keep things connected. Love you guys, lots.